Running Through Life

So many people around, I feel intimidated

So much beauty around, I feel deprived

So much intrigues me, I feel confused

Temptations lure me, I lose my way

Discontent with my past, Lost in the present, Worried about the future

Wondered whether life is just a dream..or a nightmare

I started running, I wanted to break free from this body or

 Probably I wanted to tame it, whatever it meant

I was trying to silence my mind blabbering in chaos

So that I could feel peace within and outside

Thoughts cringe me, pulling me back

As I gasped for life, and kept running

Was it compulsion? Or my choice?

Whatever it is, Just kept running

As time passed by thoughts of money, fame, desires chased me

Or was I chasing them, I had no idea

But I kept running, for a reason I was unaware of

I remembered all my dreams, waiting to be fulfilled

The beauty of boulevard, the silence of dawn, the passing woods made me think

Does life run through me? Or I run through life

Or have we both ran into each other, without a purpose?

We breathe all the time every moment we live

But now I am actually breathing, senses come alive

Wind breezes past my ears, Sweat blinds my sight

Heart pounds with an upbeat, an exhilaration for more..more life

As I sustained my breaths, loneliness gripped me, I was alone, all alone

And I remembered the people who supported me throughout my life

Positive memories flooded me

But right now I had no one, People were around but I was alone

Just me and my path leading to a goal, which I was unaware of

I felt inspired as the journey tested me and I told myself to edge on and keep going

Running helped me empty my mind to feel the silence within

It gave me answers without words, It made sense without any reason

I hadn't realised that the journey had not yet begun 

It doesn't begin on flat terrains, It begins where one has to rise 
To keep climbing the slopes of challenge, life is not easy

It begins beyond your comfort zone and that Pain is very real

My fears start gathering, forcing me to say in equilibrium

Fascinating me with the comforts of life, Hiding from me all the truths to be known

But this time I will not let it win

So instead I speeded up, Not just to go the distance

But to shut that voice inside me

As the summit approaches, one realises that

Battles of Life are lost by mind, But won by heart

And on this peak, one sees the past

But was this peak my destination or just a temporary halt

Whatever it may be, It felt good

I paused for a while to see what little I had achieved

But I couldn't stop, I guess it was Passion

Coming down the hill, I was supported by gravity

To run faster and forget about the consequences

I started appreciating the little things in life like 

chirping of birds, rays of the sun, peace of the lake

Adrenaline flowed through me, and I ran till my body gave up

Only then I realised that, Life given to me is a gift

No matter what path you chose, You will reach the destination
The journey may seem tough and long

Why not enjoy it and leave rest to the energy that created us

Only in complete bliss can you merge with the bigger quantum

People started running ahed of me, chasing their goals
and for a fraction I wished to run more in order to get ahed of them
But it wasn't anyone, but my own self that I was racing
I thought to myself that I had won the race, 
even without winning or even participating in one
 But the oblivion of chase is always on

I wonder life is like a puff of smoke

Arising out of nowhere and going nowhere

All I can do is rise higher with it and Disappear.